Wednesday, 1 January 2014

That End-Of-Year Reflection post

2013 has definitely been a very lethargic year for me. At least for my taste. Even though there were some changes done, they weren't even close to where I wanted to be. And I'm not blaming on anything or anybody, I know it was my own damn ass that was sitting on the couch for the whole year. But nobody is too sedentary. Life and circumstances make you learn a lesson or two all the time. So this is the very little (yet permanent) that I have learned:

This was the year that I switched job titles. Same place, just doing different stuff. When I started in pharmacy last February, the only drug name I could say right was ibuprofen and acetaminophen (Advil and Tylenol, pretty much). I knew about Prozac, courtesy of Hollywood, but that was about it. It took its time but now I know 500 times more than I did 10 months ago. I also got to learn about darn people's insurances and private health plans. Who knew there were so many! I also learned how stressful dealing with people's health can be, even from the pharmacy side (can't even imagine what would it be to work at a hospital or doc's office!). Many, MANY nights I had taken work to my dreams, waking up at least 3 times every night from terrible pill-related nightmares. I was THIS close to resign (your health, mental or physical, is always more important than any job or amount of money). But it took a little of perseverance and a lot of stubbornness to keep going forward and get used to my new job. Best part of this is definitely my coworkers, though. Everybody has everyone's back and are willing to go the extra mile for the team. 
Now, pharmacy is definitely not my chosen career. And although it's frustrating having graduated from school 2 years ago and still not be working in the field, I'm enjoying the ride, learning a lot and making new friends in the process.

This was also the year of engagements, pregnancies and babies. Several friends from high school and some from work started their own families. And most of my other high school friends were in disbelief, taking their opinions on Facebook and claiming that having babies or getting married was becoming a "trend". Not that I am judging them but it got me thinking, ya know? 
We are, unfortunately, reaching that age where we settle down, start planning (or not) our future and figuring out our priorities as adults. In other words, we are getting old!! It's hard to believe I graduated from high school 8 years ago!
By this time, all my generation has (hopefully) figured out what they are going to do with their lives. Like I told a friend of mine not too long ago, we have realized our own priorities in life. For some people, their priority is to excel in their professional life, for some other is to have lots of money, and for some others is to start a family.
I can only say, it gets so close to your reality that you start questioning if you should be following those steps too. You know, follow the herd. And when I put myself in their shoes, I found myself feeling scared about the simple thought of bringing a child to the world. The more I think about it, the more scared I get. It's not an easy business. You will be raising a human being. Plus, I still feel like a child myself! So much to achieve, so much to learn. So much liquor to consume...
So I applaud the brave ones that can handle such responsibility. It's definitely admirable.

This was also the year I fell in love with my band. Although we were formed in the summer of 2012, it was this year that I truly got to know my band mates and realized how lucky I was to meet such awesome individuals. I realized how much potential we have and how bad I want this dream to come true. I definitely know 2014 will be a great year for Elysium Echoes, and I can't wait to witness it and be part of it!

So this has been my End-of-Year reflection post. And what would a cheesy end-of-year nostalgia be sans the equally cheesy and extremely cliché resolutions:

To listen more music albums, and not song per song (particularly with metal bands).

To follow a new motto: it can never be too early. Which can also be translated as "fight procrastination".

To make schedules and deadlines for everything. So things can actually get done lol

To work on my voice and self consciousness. 

To use less Facebook.

To take more pictures (with a better camera)

To remember to live at my own pace. Life is not a competition. I shouldn't compare myself to others because our paths were different and got/will get to our objectives at the right time.

This is it! This is the year I literally get my ass off the couch and start doing shit. Can't just sit and watch my life go by. Oh boy, have I learned! I don't want to do this ever again ;-)